I had a serious work injury, many surgeries, nerve root damage, incontinence x2, and 2 years later developed spinal stenosis in cervical spine, which is causing me so much pain, I struggle with sleep. I have never had a problem with depression, however because of the run around the insurance company is giving me, I am at the end of my rope. I went to fill prescriptions today, and broke down crying uncontrolable, because of the way some pharmacy's make you feel like a common drug addict! The pharmacy's themselves have never made me feel this way, either has my pain management Doctor....he has been wonderful, and sincerly trying to help me. I have never tried to go on disability, even though I would definatly qualify, because for me giving up work, would make it worse, and I am afraid I would just sit around and think about pain!?! Maybe I am just afraid this is the best it will get?!?
I have the most wonderfully supportive husband, faimily, and friends, however I avoid complaining, feeling like people will not want to be around me if I have a negative attitude. My parents always raised me that I can rise above anything, with a positive attitude. I feel I have always tried to be a loving, compationite person, and now I am turning into a short tempered, grumpy lady!
I have expenses that I could turn into workmans compensation, for no other reason, than I just don't have it in me anymore. I am quickly diving into a deep depression. Workmans Comp is refusing to pay for my cervicle stenosis, sending me to other states to find "doc's for sale" . In the past I would always fight for justice, however don't have it in me any longer! I am NOT considering suicide, I love my husband and family to much, however I am absolutly no help to them right now...am struggling to hang on to a job I love, and am trying to be the loving person I used to be.
Maybe someone out there might have some encouraging advice, on how to deal with a Workman's Comp Insurance company in Alaska. Thank-you so much for taking the time to read this.